worst friend
in 8th grade britney was my best friend i was so stupid. i still can’t believe it we used to draw pictures and talk after 4th period and ate at the back table at lunch. we said we were cool but now i know it was such shit.
she would come to my house and my dad would call me in my room. this was in the days before KATE. dad was still crying mostly so we wouldn’t see him except when he was in the kitchen or something. but then after summer she just went from best friend to worst friend and now a total bitch.
today in lunch she saw me when i past the old table and i could see she remembered when we used to sit there before we started hating each other. i hoped she could not remember all the times we were friends but it felt scary. do you think she remembers it too? i wanted to run away but it wouldn’t work because where could you run to that would make some one else forget what they knew? i just looked at the floor and hoped she would not know what i was thinking but from her eyes i think she could. it stil feels like a sucking hole inside.
heather is much better but i would never tell anyone sometimes she is just as bad. she is my best friend but sometimes she only acts like my best friend and tries to hang with carl and those guys at the table by the cutouts. liz knows but i act like i don’t even notice.
i wonder if my mom had a best friend or maybe she could of used one. my dad never had any.
