thank god
it has been a hole month since she left that bitch. so now i can finally blog again like before that summer and her moving in and everything else. now she’s gone and the wicked witch is dead thank god!
i wanted to go out with just my dad but hes been sleeping so much sinced she left and doesn’t want to talk. he started one day but started crying again it was annoying because we can’t get back to normal yet. so i just call britney all the time and talk while he sleeps. she rules!
i am SO glad KATE is gone! thank you good!
sukmer
one week of school and then summer. they should call it sukmer it is going to blow even harder than school like it does every year. this year is worst but at least my dad and KATE will get the eff out for a few days and i will stay with liz. that’s in July. that fake-ass bitch is taking him to thge kayman island or some shit.
i was going to stay with heather but then she turned into a britney too-face ho. liz is okay but now she is like a best friend i guess but not all the way.
it is so stupid but i wish school was not out next week. everyone is all happy and talking about partying and drinking but is wish it was still march. summer just sucks. maybe i’ll get sick and KATE will have to go by herself and my dad can saty home with me like my mom used to when i was little.
christmas blech
so christmas is over another year so stupid. so dumb i can’t believe i let myself get almost excited about it just like when i was little. i thought it could be good.
two weeks without school sounds good but sucks actually. two weeks without school means two weeks looking at KATE’s stupid mug holding hands with my dad trying to look like she’s acting normal. trying to act like i don’t see exactly what she’s doing. two weeks of being alone but you can’t really be alone anyway. two weeks without nortmal people or second period.
family shit sucks.
worst friend
in 8th grade britney was my best friend i was so stupid. i still can’t believe it we used to draw pictures and talk after 4th period and ate at the back table at lunch. we said we were cool but now i know it was such shit.
she would come to my house and my dad would call me in my room. this was in the days before KATE. dad was still crying mostly so we wouldn’t see him except when he was in the kitchen or something. but then after summer she just went from best friend to worst friend and now a total bitch.
today in lunch she saw me when i past the old table and i could see she remembered when we used to sit there before we started hating each other. i hoped she could not remember all the times we were friends but it felt scary. do you think she remembers it too? i wanted to run away but it wouldn’t work because where could you run to that would make some one else forget what they knew? i just looked at the floor and hoped she would not know what i was thinking but from her eyes i think she could. it stil feels like a sucking hole inside.
heather is much better but i would never tell anyone sometimes she is just as bad. she is my best friend but sometimes she only acts like my best friend and tries to hang with carl and those guys at the table by the cutouts. liz knows but i act like i don’t even notice.
i wonder if my mom had a best friend or maybe she could of used one. my dad never had any.
dream
i had this dream it woke me up. i was with brad in the park like some cheeseass movie KATE would probly like but then he wasn’t brad he was my dad instead. i didn’t freak but then he went away toward this woman i never saw her but i know she was there. it was my mom.
he wouldn’t talk he just looked at her slow and she didn’t talk either just looked. but then she was KATE instead and he talked and talked like an idiot.
then they were gone that bitch and i was lookig for brad again. people were in the park eating on giant towels and i started freaking. i asked them all where brad was but no one would talk to me they were all eating. it got dark and then i was walking to a house. i knew it was brad’s house but i have never seen brad’s house real house because he lives in elizabeth lakes but nobody was home. the house was dark and the whole street was dark and i fell over. when i hit the ground it was all wet and i woke up.
heather said dreams always mean something but i know she’s wrong it is so stupid. best friends can be stupid some times.
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